I'm going to post what I eat here, therefore I'll be posting in this entry daily and updating/editing it often.

Oh & I've always been horrible about exercising but when I actually do it I'll be mentioning it, too.
( My food diary )

Calorie stuff for my height, weight and age.. for my own reference:
"These results will help you to know how many calories you need to maintain your current weight, and the number of calories needed per day to achieve your goal weight in a healthy, steady manner.
You need 2208.5 calories per day to maintain your current weight without exercise.
You need 2089.3 calories per day to reach your goal weight slowly and maintain that weight without exercise.
If you reduce your current caloric intake to 1708.5 calories per day you will lose one pound per week without exercise.
If you increase your current caloric intake to 2708.5 calories per day, you will gain one pound per week."

I'm no longer interested in keeping my uterus. If you know anyone who wants one it's for sale. mmk?

Hmph... what do I do with my life now?

My boyfriend tried to kill me tonight.. he choked me like 5 times. He's in jail right now. He'll get out after he goes before the judge and hopefully won't be allowed to come back here. I need to get a personal protection order. My glasses suck now.. they got broke into several pieces and I super glued them back together.

WHY DO I FAIL SO BADLY AT LIFE? WHY DID I END UP WITH A DUDE LIKE HIM??? WTF?

I have gotten to a point in my life where I no longer understand how to work my electronics and I have to ask my 7 year old to make the Playstation2 work a DVD for me.

so.. i set some mouse traps cause i have found evidence of wild vermin hangin out in my house (aka, poo) and i've seen one or two when they didn't realize i was in the room they ran in front of me... so, i've set mice traps... one is MISSING now and i think a mouse got caught in it but not killed and is still roaming around my house dragging the trap because i keep hearing dragging/scraping noises and i can't ever find where it's coming from. i hear it now ...

...my snake went up into my hair and under my bandana and is slithering around under there... this feels weird.. very, very weird... my head is crawling

A horse nibbled on my new Betsey Johnson bag!

I'm leaving for Alabama tomorrow. I'll probably be back at the beginning of August. I don't post here often enough for any of my LJ friends to miss me but if you were gunna wonder where I went, now you know =P

ASH-A-LEEEEY... i will be neeear yoooou... >:)

I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end

He noted that first came the date of her birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth.
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not how much we own;
The cars, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard.
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what’s true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we’ve never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy is being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

The bird I posted pictures of died yesterday. This SUCKS!! He was really cool, he had already let me pet him and would sit on my hand, that's huge trust for a bird I only had less than a week.

Now I'm worried to get another... why did he die? did he have some disease? what if his cage is contaminated with that disease?? I'm afraid if I somehow don't clean all the cage stuff well enough that I might somehow make another bird sick. erg

if you read this... get in contact with me about having a slurpee machine installed in my house, thank you.

I've not eaten up to 900 calories on any day yet and I'm tired. blaaaaaahhhhh

EDIT: i might also be getting sick... gia had a temp of 104.5 at one point last Saturday but getting better and Ryan is sick now and her temp is 102.4
AND both of my parents are super sick, maybe with H1N1 but they aren't testing for it unless you have to go to the hospital. steve sounds congested so something is goin on with him but he never gets sick so i doubt it'll get bad at all.

my rats are dropping like flies... I just had Moe put to sleep within this last month because he had non-curable cancer on his head and neck and now I noticed Gordo has a Tumor (that seemed to double in size overnight) growing where his testicles used to be, I have to call the vet ASAP in the morning because I don't want that preventing him from going potty and blocking him up.. that would be so painful. I'm so glad I noticed that when I did, he is a lil plump and I coulda mistaken that for bum-fat. I only have three rats left from the 9 I had a couple years ago... that is too much death to have to handle. I am NEVER going to have that many rats at one time again and I think I may take a break from them after they all pass. I'm really sad, Gordo ties my very first rat Finnagain for the most lovable, friendly rat I have ever had.
I'm being very 'glass is half empty' right now, MAYBE it's a cyst or something that they can fix... but, I already had a rat with this problem (sorta she was a girl and it was reproductive) and they said I should have her put down while she was still comfortable.

my mouth is throbbing... i kept saying "you are the devil" in my head to the lady cleaning my teeth, sweet holy fucking hell..that sucked... it's been 15 years since i had my teeth cleaned... she cleaned inside my gums around each tooth. -cringe-

my dental tab is getting really high.

I bought a dental discount plan to reduce the cost of everything and that was $104
first visit was $180
second visit was $133
third visit was about $200
fourth visit didn't happen like it was supposed to cause my tooth that was prepped for a crown still hurts for some reason aka.. no $ spent.
fifth visit today almost $200
next visit is gunna be $322 and the visit after that is $190 and the visit after that is gunna be $645

TOTAL: $1,974 ... >:/

Looking at the total, it's surprising that after 15 years without a trip to the dentist that is all I got goin' on.

SO, my house is a huge mess and instead of cleaning it i'm watching youtube videos of other people cleaning their house, that's not productive.. maybe i'm motivating myself?

I wanna redecorate my living room and get rid of half my couch, it's a sectional and I only wanna keep the chaise part, assuming i can clean the upholstery and it looks ok when i'm done.

ryan went to the ER tonight. steve took gia and her to a store and she stuck her arms in her overalls outside and then fell face first onto gravely pavement. her nose is twice the size it was, her upper lip is super swollen... her nose & lip and the area in between, her forehead and her chin are all scraped up... along with her shoulder and her knee.
she's ok, we were worried she had a broken nose or a concussion since she landed on her nose/ head and her nose was so swollen. her face is so injured looking, she looks pitiful

there were a crap load of swine flu people wearing face masks there, hope we all don't get the flu.

P.S. Gia actually made it home from her field trip safely

This guy I dated a little bit about 5 years ago (whom i haven't really stayed in touch with) sent me an instant message on yahoo strictly to tell me his life is freakin' tubular, after he got that out he stopped talking...

Matthew : =P
Rebecca : hey
Matthew : how are you?
Rebecca : pretty good, you?
Matthew : I have been great
Rebecca : what's been goin on?
Matthew : new job, looking at houses, thinking about buying an boat, and I am going to Jamaica
Rebecca : groovy
Rebecca : what's your new job?
Matthew : and I got another motorcycle, lol
Matthew : I am a sales manager for a security company
Rebecca : that's cool
Matthew : yea, I like it and it pays well
Rebecca : so why have two motorcycles
Matthew : I bought a 69 panhead that I am restoring

*EDIT* this convo was annoying me so i sent him an snooty question: "Rebecca : So, did you buy your house boat to go to Jamaica yet?"
He didn't respond... he's a douche.

He was ok to hang out with but I didn't like him THAT much and neither of us called each other again the last time we hung out. I figured he assumed we didn't really click also... but he's randomly asked if i'm dating anyone and he invited me somewhere a couple years ago outta the blue and I said I wouldn't be able to make it and then this... weirdness... it's been FIVE years and to me, talking to me only to tell me his life is all peachy and then not talking anymore was just rude .. maybe it's just me, was he being a douche?

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i got my oil changed today, did some grocery shoppin'... spent about an hour chopping veggies for a massive batch of veggie soup i'm making late tonight after the sun goes down since i can't use the stove for a long time without heating up the house really bad, it's so hot in here.

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Gia went to the Toledo zoo for the 1st grade field trip today. My friend was a chaperon for another group there and she said she ran into Gia at the zoo WITHOUT her group, she was playing in the fountain and was soaking wet. The chaperon for her group DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE she wasn't with them. My friend told her to go find her group and waited until she had before she went on with the kids she had. I don't think I'll let Gia go on field trips again until she's old enough to call me if she gets lost or KNOW what to do if something like that happened, basically when I can trust to be alone in case her chaperon is a retard.